If I could pick my own Indian name it would be "breathes- easier"
It's a name, but it probably is a good strong one. Updating a FB status seems as bad as taking a Philosophy or Sociology mid- term. It's not about the number of likes or the number of comments it's generates, it's how uninteresing the things I have to say is I guess.
youtube is more of a drag. I don't even know how to browse properly and most times I'm headed to a repeat of a movie trailer, some music video I've viewed a dozen times, or to the Church Pastor's channel reverberating a message I still seem to be strongly convicted by. Heck the ads seem more interesting than my half hearted attempts to be creative. And they say I am highly engaging and innovative- yikes. Netflix it is.
On the other hand, I am making changes in my life. In the sincerest effort to reboot "native love" and intimacy I've decided [prayerfully] to make commitments to future what-shall-we-call-it/her "partner in crime". I blocked one person from my FB lists and effectively left my phone alone in dead battery mode so the temptation wouldn't be there to slither into that mode of idol worship- *snap snap snap* I just went there.. . and I also took the liberty of taking my HS love out of the horizon.. .
thanks to a conversation all of this happened about faithfulness this all happened. At least I can be grateful- and I pray it keeps on going strong that I'm not a porn addict. I wouldn't be a cool drunk. . . or an entertaining host, so I'll just stick to this.
The everydayness of Nick. I haven't lifted a finger to push on in the much anticipated life story I am manuscripting myself. I haven't the ambition to work on my poetry either. Short stories are becoming chores and life is becoming ordinary. I think I need an intervention. I look at the bare walls in my apartment, the murals in my office, the alignment of the breezy trees and green stuff and passive aggresively blame them for stealing my creativity. But other than that I'm still trying to figure out how the genie in the bottle, plot devices, how come almond joy's are so good and why talking walks is still a good release valve and decent inexpensive therapy.. .
in the office tonight earning it
- Nick
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